new direction

 
I‘ve always loved the notion of a fresh start. A clean slate…….newly sharpened pencils and a blank notebook…….an unexposed roll of film……… all just ooze *possibility* and potential. New Years Eve never did much for me, but oh, New Year’s Day! The big daddy of new beginnings!

I don’t think I’ve so eagerly awaited a new year as much as this one since the year following my mother’s death 13 years ago. Are there such things as “bad years”? Why does it feel this way? We don’t tend to say, “boy, the 3rd quarter of 2006 was a rough one for me”, instead we label entire years as such. And it really does seem true. Our powerful minds create more of what we notice and give our attention to and the universe delivers, whether we want it or not. In essence, once we designate a year as “bad” we have doomed ourselves. I suppose this is why so many of us need the old calendar taken down and a fresh one put up to believe that real change is possible. The new year is clear and unblemished and sparkles with hope.

What direction will I go? Where will it take me and what will I find when I arrive? Who will I meet along the way? There are so many questions burning inside me on this first day of 2007. Great losses were sustained, and long held illusions were shattered this past year. I nearly gave up trusting myself as a result. There were days I only wanted someone to point me in the right direction because I no longer felt I had within me the capacity to find it on my own. But the year is new, and a clean slate lies before me.

I can go anywhere.

 
~Cynthia